27.

Happy 27th Birthday.

SFT,

Setapak, Kuala Lumpur

18.49pm

 

Lifeless Face

Well i've lost it all, i'm just a silouhette

a lifeless face that you'll soon forget

my eyes are damp from the words you left

ringing in my head, when you broke my chest

ringing in my head, when you broke my chest

and if you're in love, then you are the lucky one

'cause most of us are bitter over someone

setting fire to our insides for fun

to distract our hearts from ever missing them

but i'm forever missing him

Youth -  Daughter (https://youtu.be/VEpMj-tqixs)

From 24 years old tim.

                                   xoxo.



Haii tim di masa depan- yang berumur 25 tahun. Hahaha! this is me, your 24 y/o self. Err.. *awkward silences* Take care, okay? hahahah! ohya.

Don't be tooo hard on me, ya arsehole! Fak ya! :'D

Oh. Hey! almost forgot. This is my song for you, my dear. :)

https://youtu.be/1-W6whvn8Bs


mi amor,
timmy.


25:56
27th April 2020

11:55pm

 Later.

Dari Tim 23 kepada Tim 24

(Sleeping With Sirens - I'll Take You There)

Ritual peribadi seperti tahun-tahun sebelum ini, daku akan berikan satu lagu pada diri sendiri ketika hari terakhir berumur 'umur tersebut'. 

Yahallo Tim di masa hadapan! ini untuk kau. Cheers dude. See you few minutes later hahaha.









Tim 23 tahun,
11:55pm,
27 April 2019
Pluto.

Tormented Soul

Yuki-Chan - Be With You (2004)

Yuki-Chan - Be With You (2004)

Yuki-Chan - Be With You (2004)

Yuki-Chan - Be With You (2004)

What is a tormented soul?

A soul that can't break free.

A soul that wants to flee the harsh realities of this cruel and hate filled world.

What does a tormented soul feed upon?

A tormented soul feasts upon broken dreams.

It drinks the bittersweet wines of lost hopes and what will never be.

What causes it to be this way?

Dreams broken, hopes never fulfilled, and friends turned enemies all haunt the soul like a pack of famished wolves.

How can you help a tormented soul?

You don't.

Nothing can be done.

For them it is too late.

They are already doomed to an unnatural fate.

:)

Bedtime Story

I want to feel alive.

04:20am

Let's Try Living For Once

04:37am



If you want to die, then die.

But die tomorrow.

If it's feel hard for you to die tomorrow as well,
then die the day after that.

If you feel the same pain the day after that,
even if you die the next day and the day after that,
it won't be too late.

If you live each day at a time like that,
than a good day will definitely come.

There will come a day where you'll tell yourself
"I did a good thing of not kiling myself back then".



(Source: Kill Me Heal Me, K-drama.)

The Recital Of Dreams

The Recital Of Dreams - Leonora Carrington

You do know that you are a dream don’t you?

Do you realize how completely alone the Divine Being is?

All that there is is only this Divine Being.

Our Beloved, our Self.

To hide from the Truth the Divine Beloved dreams that It is You.

And Me and All of US.

An infinately multiple personality

Look deeply inside of your self.

You will find only Me.

You and Me and Me and You!

But one of us is the other’s dream…

One of us must, in the end, die the death of a lie and the Other return to its aloneness.

But what good is this Truth?

Shall we not have pity on Our Self then and continue dreaming that We are You and I and I and You?

Let’s us live a little longer in this dream

Until we can no longer look into each other’s eyes, fool our selves and see another.

One day my dear mask, my poor victim,

That shall crush in upon you and wash you helpless

into an ocean you have long forgotten like a grain of sand.

Drowning, you will be forced to release yourself and return to Self.

- Leonora Carrington

Strangers

How do you commence speaking of someone that you don't even know?

Let me ask you.

Isn’t it feels like a miracle,

If someday you meet a stranger  who feels so familiar to you?

You can say you completely doesn’t recognized them

But,

At the same times, you felt as if you’ve known them somewhere.

Sometimes, it's when the wind blows upon your face,

It's when you feel the breeze while closing your eyes,

Suddenly theres a thought pop in your mind.

But you couldn’t explain it.

Indescribable.

Yes dear. You forget something.

You’re once a stranger too in their world.

Then, by time passed slowly,

you forgot about yourself,

You reached out.

Slowly, giving your heart without ever counting the cost,

to bring some relief to another's aching heart.

“you don’t feels lika a stranger anymore” - 4:30am




S.F.T
28 May 2018
22:02pm
Kundur Hulu, N.9